Oops I Did It Again

I’m going deeper underground…wrote Jamiroquai.

And sung by me over the last couple of weeks.

But why…I hear no-one shout with little surprise. Well, I have plenty of excuses, but no reasons. Let’s leave it there then, shall we?

So tomorrow I do another 7 day reset. I truly believe they work, but for me I’ve realised I need more. I need to build habits, and structure and guidance help me with that. So while I can, and have, kept up some good elements of the reset, I’ve not really used it as a launch pad for improving things further. Now that’s just me, I’m pretty sure not everyone is the same and for some that reset will be the catalyst needed, but what if it’s not?

So for the last couple of weeks I have delved into a 6 week baseline programme. I still may call it something else. This programme is almost ready, and rather than try and just jump into that, I thought let’s run through the process all at once. One big long self abuse period (sounds wrong, right?). That will truly test the reset plus baseline programme. The real question is do I need something after the 6 week baseline, and 7 week overall course. I honestly don’t know. After 7 weeks, I would hope that I have the habits formed to really embed the changes made, but also to drive forward future changes without having to constantly design programmes to improve my life.

If I need to, so be it, but I’d rather avoid it.

What I may do is create a “cheat sheet” to keep me on track. A one pager I can return to at any time to refocus my, erm, focus?

That’s another day though, and another artifact to create. It’s strange, there was a part of me thought when I dropped the site the hard part was over; really the easy part was over. It didn’t give me the massive creativity boost I hoped for. I know why of course, motivation versus discipline, but I didn’t foresee as much constant evolution required. Which is a bit weird as the whole push for this is evolution and transformation. I fell into a trap of seeing the top of the mountain, and not really realising it was just a cliff edge and there’s a lot of mountain still to climb.

And that’s with me writing a whole fucking article about that. I mean talk about irony. Or stupidity. Or naivety.

Or all of the above.

I said raw and honest, well this is it. Falling into a trap I identified and called out, and talked about how to avoid. It’s that easy. All it takes is a little bit of complacency.

Now I see it though, I’ll never fall into that trap again.

At least, not until the next time.

One positive of falling into that trap is it allowed me to dream again. Big dreams. Dreams of what I want to achieve in the future.

And not small dreams mind you. I’m talking big, ambitious dreams that no-one will think I can achieve. Which is good, because it’s all the sweeter when I do achieve them. I am tempted to share them now, but not yet. I want this to focus on the next 7 weeks, because that is the early foundation of achieving those ridiculously ambitious dreams. It’s the first brick of many, I see that clearly now. That won’t be the top of the mountain, it’s just another cliff face.

You can, if you really desire, follow this 7 week journey more closely on TikTok, just search Lactic Fire.

As the Chinese proverb says, “A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step.”